If you're serious about sanctification, you can expect to experience heart-wrenching moments that try your faith, your endurance, and your patience." -- Sheri Dew
I've come to realize that when you redefine yourself, that means that you need to define the difference between what is worth it, and what's left unsolved. In this task, I've sent messages of apology to many who deserved them. I've also come to realize that maybe people were left in the past for a reason... And whatever reason it is, is a good reason... since everything happens for reasons beyond our ability to comprehend as to why. I know this room, and I've walked this floor... I at more than 1 point in time, lost my closest group of friends, because of a similar situation. And as I did then, I will do now. Though the road may look desolate, I know that there are foot prints at certain points, and certain points where the prints end... So I too will be able to see a path no other could, and I'll be able to walk a more defined, and refined path. And hopefully my trek on this road will last just a little longer than the last set before the ones I am forming... for it will be a testament to the next to travel such, that you can make it, no matter how long or how many times you walk it, or others have walked it. I will form friendships beyond measure, but hold onto the few and dear ones I have now with an eternal grasp that not even the very gates of hell can shake off.
In this time I'll be scraping, burning, building and relishing in the new ideas, and merely scooting the old aside. EFY is on my schedule. Provo Session 1, here I come! With EFY, comes the wonderful opportunity for me to define my spiritual self, build it, and spread it about. I'll also meet people with a good head on their shoulders, both spiritually, and mentally. I'm so ready to gain new friends who'll add to my already wonderful amount of friends; whom I've been overly blessed with. I know that in order to find something, you first must lose it. But I'm so grateful for the few I have by my side, who I will gladly continue my journey with. Mari is such a sweet young woman. She's always at my bedroom door when she gets wind of even an INKLING of my feeling down. She's always reminding me, and others of her availability to be there at any moment, if needs be. She's such an amazing example of selfless service. Robert is by far, one of the biggest role model's when it comes to forgiveness. He's been, above all, my best of friends. He's taught me a lot about responsibility, respect, and plain common sense. He's a great listener, and sometimes it annoys me that he IS such a person. Because he's even willing to listen to rants. And if anyone elses rants are as bad at mine (or worse), he's definitely a saint. He's honest with me, and puts me in my place. He seems to be sorry when I listen to a problem he has, or something weighing heavy on his mind... but that seems to be the MOST out-of-place time to say it. Because someone as accepting, and honest as him... is worth listening to. He, is not above anyone when it comes to "who is a better friend than another." He's just the Vanilla frosting on my Vanilla cake. As Mari is my Strawberry frosting on my strawberry cake. I sure do use cake in a lot of my explaining things... dang. But to finish up what I was getting to, with the cakes, I still have many different flavored cakes, and I'm just waiting for the certain person to be the frosting for each of them.
As I begin to define myself, and refine who I am meant to ultimately become, I will travel this journey, reach out to as many as possible, and gain as much as possible; even if it results in much loss. I'll save a soul, and be a friend. I'll save a frown, and give a grin. I'll save a tear, and hug a little longer. Eventually I will be able to do my best, because I owe it to him. I can never go a day in my life, and say I was never in debt. For my living today is proof that I am forever in his debt. So I'll refine as I define the soul purpose of my being. I make walk it alone in worldly terms at times... But in the eternal perspective of everything, I know I'll never be left comfortless, or alone. For the Lord blesses us through those around us... Have I blessed you?
Victory and defeat are each of the same price.
In life it's not about how perfect we can become at who we make ourselves, but by how great we become by making ourselves great.
Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.
The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend.
What you get by achieving your goal is not as important as what you become by achieving your goal.
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