How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?

Heaven bend to take my hand

Have you ever reached the cross road where you realize that there's not much you can do when it comes to those around you?

I'm no stranger to you.
I'm no different than I was when I first met you.
I'm not trying to make things difficult.

Your happiness is key in all of my daily doings.
Your comfort in being able to talk to me, is what I look forward to.
Your way of being able to connect with me is why I live.
Your way of life is quite the life to live.

I don't know who YOU are.. But I'm hoping you can all take a little from that and know that it's about you.

I dislike controlling people. People who ask me to do something, and then I do it, but they don't do it in return... Those are the type of people who I call pushovers. The people who intentionally are hypocrites. Complaining hypocrites.

I love to listen to music, and realize how much of it actually applies to my life. And not only that, but realize that there are millions out there who relate to that song, and to me. I'm so very anxious to figure this out. To help along the way, those who need that help. I am so very, very anxious to be a great friend to those around me. It is absolutely amazing to think about, really!

I can be a bi-polar thinker and/or person. But you have to know me well enough for me to not keep up the facade of being THEE NATALIA every knows and loves... It takes a lot for me to let people in on that facade too. If that makes ANY sense.

Happiness and joy is the design of your existence. Don't you ever feel like you deserve to be miserable.

2 Ne. 2: 27
27 Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and all things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself.

Find happiness in all things. For our Lord and Savior blesses us every day. It's just your job to see what he's blessed you with.

Have Faith that you can make it. If you're not sure what Faith is, or if you are able to acquire it.. Then live like you believe. If you live long enough believing, you'll figure it out, and will be able to live with it in your life. Find Faith, Have Hope, and Contribute Charity.

Alma 32: 21
21 And now as I said concerning faith—faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true.


And to end, I have a few quotes that I read, and I thought specifically of people I know.

When ending a day you should never say “I could have”, “I should have”, or “I would have”. At the end of the day you should always say “I did”. -- Heather

Never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted.--David Andrew

Things turn out the best, for the people who make the best of the way things turn out. -- Jessica

Many say I am just one to try. I say I am one less to quit. - Diego Marchi -- Mari

If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you’ll never enjoy the sunshine.-Thomas

When your mind says give up, hope whispers "one more try." -- Robert

If God gave us all good days, how would we learn from our mistakes? -- Brenton

The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness, also keep out the joy. -- Arielle

“Accept that you have lost, but never accept that you have failed” -- Greg

Loving the life I live

I lately have had this insane overwhelming hit of old habits. It led to a few late night conversations, that were more like complaining on my behalf, to those dearest to me. I just want to start out and say that I love my friends.
I love Thomas so dearly... I don't think there will ever be such a being as him, such a friend as him who I will be able to relate to as well as him. He's so much like me at times is absolutely scares me half to death. But I love him unconditionally, anyhow. And I know that he and I will always have our promise made to each other, kept. He's amazing.

Well, I'm going to prove you wrong. I promise.

I love Mari so, so much. She's been my sister in both the good and bad sense. We've fought like sisters, but loved each other like sisters. She's one amazing lady, who is selfless beyond compare. She's gotten me far... Been my crutch, and lifeline.. She's listened when I thought no one was. She's absolutely beautiful, has a beautiful spirit, and has the best intentions for everyone. You are, what you are. You're beautiful Mari. Don't you ever forget that.

Don't look at me like that! SHUTUP!

I love MY Jessica Scott. Yes, she's mine, so back off people! I think I am most protective over Jessica. I would give up all the opportunities of happiness set before me, if I could hand them over to her. I love this girl because she makes me laugh. And that... That's priceless. She's a beauty beyond compare, and she has so much in store for her.. And I can't wait to see her reap the rewards of the good life she's sown.

Follow the butterflies, follow the butterflies! WEEEEE!!! La la la la la!

I love David Andrew. He is the epitome of... well, there's no word to describe this young man. He's been so very forgiving of me, and my shortcomings, and I am forever in his debt for such. I want the very best for this young man, along with everyone else. But especially this young man. He's got so much to offer this world, and I can only hope and pray that this world returns him the favor by giving him the love, support, and appreciation he absolutely, wholeheartedly, deserves.

Natalia. You are weird.

I love myself a Heather Scott. I love this girl and her personality. She's such a nice breath of fresh air. She has so much to grow on, and to become. She's going to be one fantastic young woman. And I can't wait to see what lucky guy gets her, along with my other girls. She's so very spirited. She is absolutely hilarious, and gives me what I dish her, right back. She's a fighter, and doesn't take crap from anyone. She would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings. Well, that's a lie... *wink* She's wonderful, none the less. And I am so excited to see who she becomes.

"It's hard. Ya know?" "Yeah well Heather. I'm 18, and I'm still clueless. Age does NOTHING to improve your knowledge."

I love Angela Scott. She is one of the funniest ladies I know. She's been such a great mom to me, even better than my REAL one (Sorry mom!). She's supported me, and heeded the Lord's council. She's an amazing example, and is so diligent in doing what is best for her, and her family. She's so wise, and beautiful... I really do hope to be like her when I grow up.

If the spark isn't there from the start, why are you dating him? That's what I think about relationships.

I love the Lord. He's given me best friends.. and a life that I looked at from a point of view tonight. And I thought "You know.. I love my life. Because I have at least ONE person who I can talk to when in need, aside from the Lord. Someone who I can relate to.". He's given me so much... SO,SO much.. And he's so patient, and unwavering in his love towards me, and those around me. I love him for giving me the life I have, and blessing me with who and what I have. He's absolutely wonderful. And he brings me so much happiness.. Whether it be straight from him, or through those around me. He is SO good!! How lucky am I to have him in my every day life?! Seriously.

18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. John 14:18

I also have been blessed with one of my newest and most random of friends.. who I am truly grateful for. Brenton. He reminds me of me. But.. of course, not in a girly sense. He's so very smart, thinks too much, and doesn't quite know how to get out what he wants to say, or who to let it out to. I'm very grateful. He's been a great random event in my life. Thanks Brenton, for the 6am conversations.


The Lord is too good to me sometimes.. And I love him so tremendously for it. My gratitude is so abundant, I can hardly stand to keep it to myself! Thanks for helping me along this journey. Thank the Lord for your blessings. And thank yourself for being where you are today. YOU made the choices that have gotten you to where you are.

Sure do love you all!

43 O Lord, we delight not in the destruction of our fellow men; their asouls are precious before thee;

1 To seal the testimony of this book and the Book of Mormon, we announce the martyrdom of Joseph Smith the Prophet, and Hyrum Smith the Patriarch. They were shot in Carthage jail, on the 27th of June, 1844, about five o’clock p.m., by an armed mob—painted black—of from 150 to 200 persons. Hyrum was shot first and fell calmly, exclaiming: I am a dead man! Joseph leaped from the window, and was shot dead in the attempt, exclaiming: O Lord my God! They were both shot after they were dead, in a brutal manner, and both received four balls.

3 Joseph Smith, the Prophet and Seer of the Lord, has done more, save Jesus only, for the salvation of men in this world, than any other man that ever lived in it. In the short space of twenty years, he has brought forth the Book of Mormon, which he translated by the gift and power of God, and has been the means of publishing it on two continents; has sent the fulness of the everlasting gospel, which it contained, to the four quarters of the earth; has brought forth the revelations and commandments which compose this book of Doctrine and Covenants, and many other wise documents and instructions for the benefit of the children of men; gathered many thousands of the Latter-day Saints, founded a great city, and left a fame and name that cannot be slain. He lived great, and he died great in the eyes of God and his people; and like most of the Lord’s anointed in ancient times, has sealed his mission and his works with his own blood; and so has his brother Hyrum. In life they were not divided, and in death they were not separated

6 Hyrum Smith was forty-four years old in February, 1844, and Joseph Smith was thirty-eight in December, 1843; and henceforward their names will be classed among the martyrs of religion; and the reader in every nation will be reminded that the Book of Mormon, and this book of Doctrine and Covenants of the church, cost the best blood of the nineteenth century to bring them forth for the salvation of a ruined world; and that if the fire can scathe a green tree for the glory of God, how easy it will burn up the dry trees to purify the vineyard of corruption. They lived for glory; they died for glory; and glory is their eternal reward. From age to age shall their names go down to posterity as gems for the sanctified.

Walk a little taller

I've noticed a little trend lately... Girls tend to try to get away with the whole getting a nose piercing, or having a life where it leads them to unwanted circumstances. Or even girls who just live like they can do whatever they want, dress immodestly, swear, drink, smoke, and other such things. It amazes me though... how they quickly change when their generation of young men, return from their missions. It's stooping a little low when you change just for that. It's great that these RM's are causing such change in Young Women, but Young Women... Don't you think they deserve a little better? Shouldn't you be making yourself better, living a life around the church and it's teachings? I'm not saying be so into the whole standards and gospel that you feel the need to enforce them upon others. Because by no means, am I forcing anything on anyone. I'm just surprised that so many young men that I know are falling short of what they truly want. You cannot change for a guy, trust me. And a guy won't change for you. Stand a little taller, and be an example.

I by no means am claiming I'm perfect, or any of that... But I don't seem to have ever found the guts to actually go out in public with just a tank top on, or have I ever just started swearing, or drinking because it's cool... I haven't even tried a cigarette. I just wonder what goes through the mind of one of these Young Lady's who isn't like myself.

I've been thinking a lot about it lately... For so long, I was a geek. The, not so pretty, acne victim, with geeky hippie hair, and I wore no makeup. But I never got down on myself about it, until now. I was happy. I did what I was suppose to, even after having my sisters laugh in my face, and friends making fun of me (not much of good friends, sadly). I went my 16th and 17th birthday's single. Well, except for 3 months, but that really... will never count. You know... technically speaking, Robert was my first boyfriend. I promised the Lord when I was 16 (after my stupid 3 month deal) that I would wait until I was 18 to date. Even when I was 18, I had never had my first kiss.. Never been kissed before. To me, that was a great accomplishment. Especially since when I hit about age 17 I actually started taking care of myself, and how I looked. I promised the Lord, and he blessed me. The day after my 18th birthday, was Robert's. I met him in Nauvoo solely because it was his birthday. If it hadn't of been his birthday, we probably would have never met. Even with Robert, I kept my standards quite high. He, of course, gave me my first kiss... And he gave me a few wonderful months of being in a relationship. I think what made it the best was... that I didn't feel ashamed for being in a relationship with a guy as great as him. And that's something I'll always do. I'll make sure to keep myself as far from what I know will hurt me in the long run, just so that I don't ever regret. I'd hate to look back and think "I could have done better.."

So to all who think it's a little ok to slip here and there... Remember to walk a little taller.

"9 For they were set to be a alight unto the world, and to be the saviors of men;
10 And inasmuch as they are not the saviors of men, they are as salt that has lost its savor, and is thenceforth good for nothing but to be cast out and trodden under foot of men."
D&C 103:9-10

"10 I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise."
D&C 82:10

"Life is what happens to you while you’re working for your future."

Faith, Prayer and Gratitude.

You cannot always be torn in two

We tend to get so caught up in life that we forget to live it. We're so distraught on what hasn't happened, that we choose to be blind to that which has.

Never have I realized so deeply, how truly blessed I am for the friends I have been blessed with... and also for the knowledge that I know I will meet more, who will be as much a blessing, too. That is... Until now.






Isaiah 52:13-53:6

"Behold, my servant will prosper, he will be high and lifted up, and greatly exalted. Just as many were astonished at you, my people, so his appearance was marred more than any man, and his form more than the sons of men. Thus he will sprinkle many nations, kings will shut their mouths on account of him; for what they had not been told them they will see, and what they had not heard they will understand.

Who has believed our message? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? For he grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of parched ground; he has no stately form or majesty that we should look upon him, nor appearance that we should be attracted to him. He was despised and forsaken of men, a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief; and like one from whom men hide their face, he was despised, and we did not esteem him. Surely our griefs he himself bore, and our sorrows he carried; yet we ourselves esteemed him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was pierced through for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the chastening for our well-being fell upon him, and by his scourging we are healed. All of us like sheep have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; but the Lord has caused the iniquity of us all to fall on him. "

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal."
Henry Ford

“When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it.”

“Life is a series of experiences, each of which makes us bigger, even though it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward.”

Stick to your task till it sticks to you;
Beginners are many, but enders are few.
Honor, power, place, and praise
Will always come to the one who stays.

Stick to your task till it sticks to you;
Bend at it, sweat at it, smile at it too;
For out of the bend and the sweat and the smile
Will come life's victories, after awhile.

Author Unknown

Too good for resolutions

This new year has brought me so many blessings so far. I love how I've learned so much, had so many trials, but also gained so much; all in the last two weeks.
Finding happiness in everything isn't easy to do. I've discovered that you won't get far in anything if your own happiness is the only thing you worry about.