"If any of you will stand up in the last day..."

On Monday it will have been 2 weeks since I last spoke to a few people.

2 weeks later, I'm happy. I really am the happiest I've been in a really longs time. I'm not sure exactly about all I do and say, other that I know they're true. I mean every thing I'm doing and saying to those around me. I've moved on from those who chose to not speak to me in this time duration, but I still love them.

This isn't a new beginning to a start.. It's a new chapter to the book. I have no idea what's in store for me, but I know that the Lord will be by my side in everything. That I'll make sure he's by my side... I'll carry on, press forward, and I'll forever love the gospel and everything in it.

With this week closing, and a new one opening, I'm just now remembering that I should be receiving my copy of my Patriarchal Blessing, in the mail. And I can't wait! I know, from getting such a blessing, that I will have those in my life who will stay close and dear to the gospel.. And I'll also have those who will fall away, and lose faith. And it scares me to think that any of my friends would completely fall away from the church. But I can't wait to help them in their endeavors, and their hope that hope will carry them back to where they want to be.

The Lord is so good to us sometimes, we don't realize it. He puts us in the right situations, at the right times, and he prepares us to be ready to be the kind of person we're suppose to be, for those situations to be fulfilled; if we're righteous.

"It is within that small moment that we little realize the significance that the situation will have in our lives. We must hold onto what is true, and we will then be blessed with understanding."

I want to touch on so many topics, but I'll limit it for your (The readers) sake. I believe that sometimes we lose hope because we feel that it is the Lord's job to carry us on. To get us through a situation or trial, the Lord has to be in control. As this is a good thing to live by, it's sometimes a foolish way to live. He cannot make our decisions, our choices are ours. We tend to believe he will lead our way... But he merely holds our hand as we choose to get up. He cannot make us get up, he cannot make you choose to be stronger, he cannot make you want to be better.

Sow an act and you reap a habit.
Sow a habit and you reap a character.
Sow a character and you reap a destiny.
~ Charles Reade (1814 - 1884) English novelist

I cannot wait to see who I, along with many others, will become. Who am I going to be? Who am I going to be a Mrs. to? Who will I trust completely, and feel is worth an eternity with?

The Patriarch, Brother Taylor, said "Do you know that your husband is out there, that your match is out there? Whether you know him or not, he's out there." And this was just the conversation we had before the blessing.

I cannot wait to stand pure, and spotless before the Lord, and know that he is real. To know that my belief was never in vain.